Long time since i updated so... now im updating... keke ^^
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SuNsETz 232: i have to update because it's been so long
Twinkie4lifeXD: ur experience @ Kosta
So Kosta it is..... i learned alot through this retreat..... it was a bit too FOBish for me but it's all good.. i had fun and i matured alot spiritually.... one of the main thing i learned was that i learned where my place was, and what i was... and the answer was nothing... i was and still am nothing.... but whats more amazing is that God took this nothing and gave it life and the ability to love.... and when i realized this.... all i could do was really just sit there and think how wonderful God was, and of His unending love and his amazing grace... God is sooo Amazing that i can not discribe Him with just couple words.. i really just sat there in awe of God.....God did not need us for any reason.... but He called to us.... I am nothing but God still loves me..... ³ª´Â ÁøÀÚ·Î... ºÎÁ·ÇÑ »ç¶÷ÀÌ´Ù.... ¸ðÀÚ¶õ »ç¶÷ÀÌ´Ù ¶õ°ÍÀ»... ²²´Ù¶ù¾î¿ä..... but i really realized that God is God... King of kings... and Lord of Lords and that He is my All in All.. I know you Christians heard of all these phrases before but.. this time i didnt' just hear them i felt it...... i was sooo small compared to God... but i had never felt happier in my life to find out how small i was..... all this time my pride had blinded me.... but God has broken down my pride and opened my eyes..... One quote from this serman at the retreat that i really thought was meaningful to me was this "A person who has everything else and God has no more than a person who has God alone , why?... because He is our All in All.." when i heard this i really saw myself ...... so many times i craved for material goods such as shopping..... and material stuff that people of none believers had and i didn't..... but now i don't need any of that.... becaue God is my All in All....
Everytime i starting praying.... i could not stop crying..... tears just came down my cheeks..... im not trying to focus on me crying... i want to focus on why i started crying.. what in my heart made me cry..... and that was because of Gods wonderful love and grace... i say this once again,... i didn't just hear these phrases in my ears but i really and truely experienced it..... at one prayer time.... all i could say to God was " father i love you ... father i love you... ¾Æºü »ç¶ûÇØ¿ä... ¾Æºü »ç¶ûÇØ¿ä... " and tears just kept on coming down and down.... Right now im just dead forzen i don't know how to describe this feeling inside me... and i can not describe in words who God is.... sigh....
Sometimes i just cry when i look at people who do not know of GOd yet... and who do not know of His love and grace..... they are missing the point in life and they seem so lost in this dark world without God..... ( i ask you all to pray for those who do not know God yet)
Through this retreat God has made me reconize so many things.... even some of my sins.... and that really got me thinking of what kind of person i was....
In conclusion... God took me and gave me life in result i started to see everything in a thankful way... ¸ðµç°ÍÀÌ °¨»çÇÑ ¸¶À½À¸·Î º¸¿³½À´Ï´Ù.. I thanked God for giving me the ability to breathe, to love, to think, but better yet, for giving me the abiblity to Glorify God.....
To my brothers and sisters in Christ : Prayer is where everything starts off.... all i can say to you guys is to really start praying.... just keep on praying and God will wake you up to what you need to realize, everyone has a different story and a different answer, i only hope that you guys will have a better story then mine and even a better answer from God then mine. | 
